There’s been a convicting theme over the past few weeks which is simply that I need to make space for nothing.
For stillness, for silence, for quiet.
I don’t remember when the first moment was. Was it the TED talk about 10 minutes of meditation? Was it the time Adam busted up laughing when he noticed me watching TV while my thumb mindlessly scrolled through a phone I wasn’t even looking at?
I’ve just realized that I am never doing nothing. In fact, more often then not I’m doing at least two, if not several things at once.
If I’m cleaning I’m also listening to a book. If I’m helping my son with homework I’m also looking up recipes on my phone.
Even during down time: I’m journaling, while watching t.v., and catching up on instagram.
Always multiple thoughts, half-assing two things instead of fully doing one.
Lots of white noise.
One of the best things about my running group is that we set goals for the week and then check our progress during our next run.
I love this accountability.
While running yesterday one of the girls said she wanted to really focus on listening to God, specifically stating, “How can we hear him if we never stop to listen.”
As you know, I am a big fan of irony. The providential, the beautiful little God-winks, like he’s smiling down saying, “you see what I did there???”
Well, my running-mate mentioning this felt like a wink.
Then, this morning I opened my devotional and the title of today’s thought was, “Fighting for space.” (the message itself was not about this topic, but the title still struck me.)
BECAUSE, even though I wanted a quiet moment this morning…
I’m in my chair, I’m calm and ready to listen.
However, directly behind me is this:
I swear, I’d have to get up at 4:30 to actually get an actual “quiet” time. But there it is.
Can God still talk to me while half my mind is listening to my daughter watch spy-kids?
I think my desire for meditative time will just have to involve baby-steps, because learning to be still is very contrary to how our society values time.
We brag about how busy we are, or how stressed. I’m often embarrassed to admit that I’m not all that busy.
Yet we are called to be still.
“Be still, and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10
“The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14
Not easily done in this world, yet it is a goal of mine. To be still…
Now if you’ll excuse me, my kids are asking for breakfast. . . like I said, I’m fighting for the space to do nothing.