meanwhile the days go drifting away…

I often catch myself falling victim to the “get through it” mindset.

Just hurry through the grocery store.

Just get through this workout.

Just survive the school pick-up line…

Once I’m back home I’ll relax.  Once this dinner is done I’ll enjoy myself.  Once this week, this busy month, this hard season has passed.  Then my life will settle down and I’ll enjoy…

I’ve witnessed this mindset often in my life.  More often then I should.

I don’t like it.

The lyrics to “Amy Hit the Atmosphere” by my favorite band EVER Counting Crows, start running through my head when I catch myself in those moments:

“Today was just a day fading into another
And that can’t be what a life is for”

How lucky I am to have such easy access to aisles and aisles of food.

How blessed am I that my body is strong, healthy, and intact.

How truly beautiful my life is now that my kids are in the world, learning in a safe environment, their education readily available, and un-protested.

“Meanwhile the days go drifting away”

This is me fighting the seductive pull to simply “phone it in”.

This is me fighting to relish every minute, every blessing.  Owning every worry free or perhaps even mundane moment and make it part of my beautiful story.

I am blessed, how dare I take a single second of this life for granted.

At the end of this song the refrain repeats, “I wanna know, I wanna know…”

And I do.

I wanna know how to live this life.  Really, live it.

“Amy Hit The Atmosphere”
By Counting Crows

If I could make it rain today
And wash away this sunny day down to the gutter
I would
Just to get a change of pace
Things are getting worse, but I feel a lot better
And that’s all that really matters to me
Well, Amy hit the atmosphere
Caught herself a rocket ride out of this gutter
And she’s never coming back I fear
Anytime it rains she just feels a lot better
And that’s all that really matters to me
We’ve waited so long
For someone to take us back home
It just takes so long
Meanwhile all the days go drifting away
And some of us sink like a stone
Waiting for mothers to come
There has to be a change I’m sure
Today was just a day fading into another
And that can’t be what a life is for
And anything she said well she feels a lot better
And that’s all that really matters to me
We’ve waited so long
For someone to take us back home
It just takes so long
Meanwhile all the days go drifting away
And some of us sink like a stone
Waiting for mothers to come
I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know
I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know
All I really know is I wanna know
And all I really know is I don’t wanna know

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